Post by Secret Calaway on Oct 21, 2013 4:54:11 GMT
"Pah..."
Swimming was kind of like a double-edged sword. Initially the water felt cold regardless of whatever temperature it might have been. Eventually it warmed up, and then everything becomes fine and dandy. From there it becomes quite fun as wading through water and racing can be quite entertaining. Back in Canada, sometimes her parents would take her out to the beach or to one of the public swimming pools. The initial chill was uncomfortable, a small thing to endure before submerging oneself and progressively growing accustomed to the chilling sensation. Theoretically it was easier to just jump in and be done with it, but every time she dwelled on it, she was stricken with a sickening amount of anxiety. Sometimes she had the mettle to just toss herself in, but today wasn't one of those days.
It was for reasons both normal and uncanny that she enjoyed swimming more often as of late. It was a place where she could embrace a quiet and calm, and isolate her mind from the matters that she found so burdening and frustrating. A place filled with water that could purge and cleanse her of her psychological impurities, where she could let all of her stress and woes simply seep through her pores and laden the immersive body of water around her. Perhaps it was much alike a watery sanctuary for her, which was ironic, given how much it could symbolize the sheer amount of inebriating substances she consumed on a daily basis. The brunette briefly chuckled at the irony, as she continued to pool her attention onto her reflection—which was cemented firmly into the water before her.
Living in a dormitory and thus away from her main problem was a good method of escapism, but at great deal of guilt came with it. For but a moment she decided to sheath those seething feelings, and focus on the present. Currently Secret was clad in a black swimsuit of sorts. Not only was it a two piece, but an additional fashion statement seemed to be the decorative, unnamed white flower bound within her ebony mane of hair. The bottoms she was wearing had a frilly addition to the design, being somewhat translucent (with a transparent segment above it, too). Belying her tomboyish nature was of course this flowery attire, but she inwardly remarked that the human mind was not so linear nor were things so black and white. A monochromatic lifestyle would have been a gift, to say the least, but that wasn't happening anytime soon.
Another sigh escaped her, as she dipped her foot into the water. Hands wrapping securely around the steel ladder that lead down into the very regulated depths of the pool, she gradually started to sink her leg further into the presently sparsely populated water. Admittedly, she had picked a time of day strategically so there wouldn't be a whole lot of people present. This time could have been better invested in studying, but for the sake of preserving her sanity she felt that it would be a good idea to be affable towards her human desires. Predictably enough, the moment she submerged her leg to that degree, she tensed up like a statue, and could only progress at a rate of submerging herself maybe another inch every five seconds.
It was probably making it worse, given she was prolonging the time she would spend unaccustomed to the water. Outwardly she knew she would act grudgingly, but if someone were to shove her in that moment, she probably would have inwardly thanked them for ending the perseverance of her discomfort. Would that happen? Well, who knew? Not a lot of people knew her, so she didn't exactly expect that to happen, unless there was someone around who was well—shamelessly forward, to say the least. Either way, she had somehow managed to convince herself she was making commendable progress. Irony was truly running rampant, in that it looked like she didn't want to be there, but voluntarily had come to the West Wing for this very purpose.
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